For most of my classes I was going to the professors to gain help, I hired a tutor and I spent hours studying … only to continue to fail.
At this point I didn’t have one ounce of belief in myself. I was reliving what my high school English teacher said “Haley is not smart enough for college.”
This was the lowest point in my life… failing my college classes, I had a verbally abusive boyfriend, and I was gaining weight.
Nothing seemed to go right. I felt dumb, I had my boyfriend constantly telling me I was dumb, and I hated the way I looked in the mirror. I was calling my mom daily sobbing, telling her I wanted to quit college. I told her my teacher was right, I am not smart enough for college. I told her “I should stop wasting the money and quit.” She begged me not to, I had come too far to just give up. But I honestly I didn’t feel like there was any other option.
My mom told me to at least pray about it for the next week, and that she and my dad would support whatever I decided.
This was about the time I started getting into health and fitness; it was helping relieve my stress from school, and my crazy boyfriend. He was so controlling, he never allowed me go anywhere without his permission or without him. The gym was one of the few places I was allowed to go, without a fight.
Not only was the gym motivating me because my appearance was changing but it was motivating me in everything else in life. I now had the courage to break up with my boyfriend. I knew I deserved better. This was the first time I felt like I had a purpose in life…I had found my calling.
I knew this is what I wanted to do in life. I wanted to help people get healthy. I called my mom and told her I wanted to finish school. I changed my major to Communications and Public Health because CU didn’t offer an exercise science program. I knew this degree would nicely complement health and fitness. This was the first time in my life I truly believed in myself!
After switching my major I still needed 46 credits to finish. I knew it would be hard but I wanted to graduate with all my friends, which meant I had 46 credits to finish in one year!
The average student takes 12-15 credits per semester, so I was going to be busy. In the Fall I took 19 credits, 18 credits in the spring semester, and 9 credits in the summer. I was able to “walk the stage” that May with all my friends, and officially graduate that summer.
Right after I graduated, I went on to attain my personal training, and nutrition certifications. I knew I wanted to help people see their true beauty. Just because someone isn’t ‘stick thin’ doesn’t mean you aren’t beautiful.
Just like when I was in school, my dyslexia didn’t mean I was stupid, it just meant I had to work a harder in certain areas. I believe all the struggles in school helped shape me into the trainer I am today.
You can have beauty in so many different ways. There is not a chart for what makes you beautiful. What makes you beautiful is believing in yourself and staying true to whom you are. My goal is to help every person start believing in him or herself when they are young.
I know what it’s like to give-up on yourself and feel as if you have dug a hole so deep it’s probably just easier to just stay there. But, where there is no struggle there is no strength.
Not only do I have my college diploma and multiple fitness certifications, I have also won bodybuilding competitions, and I am currently planning my dream wedding. My dyslexia has taught me that believing in yourself truly brings out your beauty.
My hope for you… that I can inspire you to greatness and help you to discover the beauty you have been blessed with.